shelbierose

I don’t know what to say
Because for as much as I want you to stay,

I know how hard it is to care
For a girl who is tearing herself apart
Right at the seams,
Just because she wants to make herself
Into something she doesn’t hate
But there isn’t a piece to be found.

I know how hard it is to care
For a girl whose laughter and sobs have morphed
So that you can’t tell the difference anymore,
And how every time she leaves your sight
Your heart halts and your breathing hitches
Because what if her monsters
Get the best of her
And you never see her alive again?
Because what she is right now isn’t really living,
But as long as she doesn’t break her veins
Or poison her blood
Maybe she still has a chance.

It is not easy to care for a broken girl,
And it’s damned near deadly to love a broken girl,
I know, because I’m fucking shattered
And I look at the pieces of me on the floor and
God, I don’t love me,
So how could I ever expect you to?

I can’t and won’t ask you to stay
No matter how much I want to.